I couldn't save you

Or you. Or you. I couldn't save any of you and I feel a hole in me where all my big sister superpowers used to be. I wanted you to stay oblivious. I wanted you to only remember the charm of life. I wanted you to always run to me and hug me tight and stay right there in my arms and always be my little brothers. Your eyes don't have the same twinkle. You've seen some of the ugliness of the world. And there's nothing I can do to erase it. I hate that. Even though it's inevitable, even though I knew one day this day would come, even though it's a part of life... I hate it. I love you, my three little brothers. So much more than any of you know. I wish you knew.